I Let My SS3 SG Go

yes, I let it go. after struggling.

I tried so hard to make it happened.
first thing is convinced my mom which is so hard to let me go to singapore and watch their concert. and my mom agreed. then, my dad disagree because I am a girl travelling outside indonesia. and he has no friends or family to take care of me there. but I tried to convinced him. and it works. they let me go. my dad will pay for my SS3 tickets and also the Airplane cost. And my mom pays for the hotel and accommodation. and the rest of it they let me to pay it by my self.

I was so happy back then.

then, here we come november 20th the tickets sale only for the priority which is singtel with samsung and ocbc debit or credit card holders. and ocbc singapore not ocbc nisp. and it sold out because of the priority sale only in 30 minutes. After seeing the sistic that it sold out. I did cry. and non stop cry on that day. bad mood. yes! totally.. my dream just fly away.... its so hard to get the permission. and suddenly it dissapeared.

then RITS make 100 tickets sale for public on 23rd. at 10 am which is 9 am west indonesia time. it was SOCA day! and I was like. okay.. what happened here. then I brought my laptop to college. I didn't prepare for my soca that morning, everybody keep writing down something or memorizing something. and I was like waiting on my laptop to 9 am. and suck! my modem was soooooooo slow.. i was log in there at 9.01 but because it so slow it become 9.02. then its all red. it sold out in 2 mins. then cacut said " dita I saw it in black! and after that I click. It dissapeared. its not in 2 mins, it was in second."

Me, Tibung keep trying to refresh it, because sistic usually down. but It didn't work. I wait about 30mins, and still red. the ticket was sold out. I was gonna crying but then I always make my self not to cried in front of a lot of people. because everybody watching us. they support us. but we didn't get it.

All I did was staring at the laptop keep refreshing it, and stare to tibung's. and I saw her eyes also going to cry. we both forceed ourselves not to cried. then... cacut started crying. and me and tibung said "cut please don't cry. because we're going end up with crying too" I just left buy drinks. and soca started. At the waiting room. I don't even open my book. all I do is just staring at nothing..

Thank God the SOCA succeed. but It is so sad.
I told my mom, then she said to let it go, then my dad too. they said its not my time.
and now the 2nd show is open, and the limited it for the public sale. but... my mom and my dad didn't allowed me.. they said I should let it go. I dont know the reason but they said just let it go. my dad forbid me to watch that because when he knows its 5000 people and also there'll be crow and what.. I dont know. I just dont know the reason why they didn't let me. or because at the 1st time I said the ticket was sold out. so they don't expect me to go again.

and what is really heartbreaking. because 2nd show ticket still available. seriously. it so sad.. :( but they won't let me go.
I should wait for super show in indonesia..

so goodbye my super junior oppa.
my daddy just teach me again about "you can't always get what you want, you get what you really need"

Perkembangan Skripsi

Kabar skripsi gw? sekarang sih udah mau masuk-masukin data ke SPSS.
Gw lupa kapan gw sidang proposal skripsi. kalo ga salah 27 oktober deh. ya.. tanggal segitu deh. atau 23 yah. pokoknya hari rabu aja yang gw inget. pengujinya dr. Irfan. Sumpah sebelum ujian itu rasanya mau mati mati banget. deg-degan.. tapi harus ngisi formulir ntah apa itu sebanyak 10 lembar. mana sempet mikir lagi.
Eh dateng-dateng dosen-dosennya ketawa ketawa, lagi cerita satu sama lain. Pas sidang dimulai. Sumpah! gemeteran sambil ngomong. tapi karena ngeliat penguji dan pembimbing sangat santai. ngikut santai juga ^^ dan....~ sesi pertanyaan.. lebih tepatnya ga ada pertanyaan. adanya cuma saran dari penguji 3. saran yang bagus bagus banget, daripada nanti keluar pas sidang skripsi. ya ga? hahaha =)) dan bener bener terima kasih sebanyak banyaknya buat pembimbing 1 gw, dr. Safyuddin. He help me a lot! sumpah gw itu tertolong karena dia. sumpah dok! you're the best. meskipun pas bimbingan gw harus bolak balik karna revisi terus. tapi he's the best!

Ngambil Data
1 November gw mulai ngambil data, gw belom siap souvenir apa-apa buat kuesioner. nunggu di poli tanpa dibantui oleh ibu sama sekali. ngadep administrasinya lah, ketua poli lah, ketua bagian anak lah. TANPA DIBANTU. jadi agak kesel aja kalo orang pada bilang.. "enak banget dita ngambil data di anak, ada mamanya" gila! mana ada mak gw bantu bantu, gw minta tolong sana sini udah mau nangis aja dijutekin suster di rawat inap. tapi seenggaknya residennya baik baik. cuma 1 sih yang gw ketemuin di poli agak ngemalesin. tapi sisanya baik semua!
ngambil data hari pertama semangat banget gw. lama2 males capek duduk. tapi harus dipaksain. hari hari berikutnya... duduk mandangin poli. kadang2 sebel kalo ga ada pasien. haha :)) dan yang jadi masalah lagi ga musim diare. helllooo! help me !
yah tapi seenggaknya datanya terkumpul deh. dari pada ga.

hari terakhir. karna gw selalu nongkrong dipoli. gw terkena sindrom disorientasi waktu. gw kira hari itu tanggal 28 taunya tanggal 29 dan tanggal 30 udah selesai gw ambil data. dan tanggal 1 udah rolling residen-residennya. dannnnn...~ gw belom beli kado. sumpah tanggal 29 gw capek keliling nyari kado buat residen yang bantuin dan suster2 nya. alhamdulillah ketemu sih.. :)

dan itu skripsi gw. sekarang lagi ngurusin spss nya yang gw sendiri gatau mau diapain.. hahaha

Back On Track

Its Been a long time since the last one. well I'm gonna back on track :D hahaha
Its been a busy days in this last 2 months.
and there's a lot of story to share.. :)

Story about Daddy

Due to my dad's birthday. So I wanna share some stories about my dad.
My daddy was born on August 17th 1959. He usually called by family and some of close friend as Mr. Yan, oh maybe some of friends called him Yan Kumis. But some of the people in his office called him.. Mr. Okto (due to his front name) haha.. He is the 5th child from 11 siblings (so, this is the reason why I have a lot of cousins)

My dad is the best man in the world.
My dad is the best daddy in the world
and My dad is the best husband in the world.

He actually a funny guy, love making a joke with his family.
we always laugh of his joke (except my creepy little sister. Her limit of humor is sooo high)

He got angry easily. yes! but, after 30 minute or maybe 10 minute. He calm down and become nice again. and one thing that I love after he got angry and stop is he'll forget it.

He love his wife so much.
Yes He love my mom so much, he doesn't show it too casually to her. He used his own way to show his love.

He love his children so much.
He love us (me, my 2 little brothers and 1 little sister), well not by saying "I love you kiddos" actually he never said tha he love his kids too casually. He showed it by his actions

So, He's kind of man who didn't show something too casually or just talking. He show it by his action.

Ayah..
is the one who always waking me up in the morning.
and sometime he usually lie to me by saying "come on dita! its 8 am already!"

Ayah..
is someone who always get angry with me if I sleep too late.
everynight he always said "kiddo! go to bed! its 12am already! it's not good for your health and your brain..!"

Ayah
is someone who really care about me.
there's so much thing to tell about his caring actions

Ayah...
is someone who always give me what I want.
yes! if my mom didn't give me what I want, I'll run to him. and if he didn't give me what I want. I'll always follow him wherever he goes. and he'll get tired of me who become his tail. so.. he'll give me what I want...

but...

Ayah
also someone who teach me that I can't always get what I want.
eventhough he usually give me what I want. But he will not give everything. because he knows that in this world we can't always get what we want. so, he want me to know and understand that situations.

Ayah
is a man who always protect me.
he always protect me from all the dangerous things since I was a kid until now.
he don't like people who said a bad things about me, and gossip about me.

Ayah
is a man with surprise
He love to give surprise to his family.

Ayah
is someone who always accompany me when I'm sick.
I remember, when I have my scalp tumor surgery, he used to be in Surabaya for work. But when he knew that I'm going to have my surgery. He cancelled it.
and also, when I was a kid, and I was sick he searched for a flight to back home directly after he found out about it.

Ayah
never got angry with the score that I get. he just keep talking, give me speechs and told me to study more. Because of that I cry a lot (I thought that he'll angry with me)

Ayah
can't stand see me crying. when he was angry and I cry because of that. He stop angry and makes me stop crying.

Although he is not a perfect man..
but he's doing his best to be perfect for his family

So, this is some story about my dad.
I love you so much Ayah ^^

hug and kisses
from your lovely daughter.

Happy Birthday Ayah!

Today is My daddy's birthday.
its his 51st birthday.

Happy birthday Ayah
wishing you all the best.
not only today, but everyday.

long live Ayah..
stay happy as always, stay healthy as always.
hope you'll always be blessed by Allah SWT
and hope you always get the best in your life

I love you so much Ayah
You are the best man in my life
*hug and kisses*

Listen...

dear you...
sometime I just need you to listened to me..
well you can judge me, you can give your comment, or you can give me your advice.
I love to hear your solutions for my probs..
I love the way you give me your advice...

but sometimes..
I just need you to listen..
Listen to what I feel..
Listen to what just happened to me..
I just need you to listen...

you can give your comment.
but let me do the talk first.
don't cut it...

I've tried to make you understand..
that I wanted you to listen to me first..
and you can do anything you want after that.
But you've never understand..

I just need you to listen..
I just need you to listen to me right now...

Gossip Girl came in a Real Life

Tonight..
suddenly I feel like my life and around me turns out like Gossip Girl's life.
Drama come alive! haha :))
From one bad people, to another one, and this another one is close to this another one. and correlate with each other.
and its all about someone cheating, someone who has no manner, someone who search for attention, someone who seek for a revenge, someone who is hypocrite, etc
Like ary said: "waw! its DRAMA.. total DRAMA.."
yes.. Gossip Girl came in a real life!