I Let My SS3 SG Go

yes, I let it go. after struggling.

I tried so hard to make it happened.
first thing is convinced my mom which is so hard to let me go to singapore and watch their concert. and my mom agreed. then, my dad disagree because I am a girl travelling outside indonesia. and he has no friends or family to take care of me there. but I tried to convinced him. and it works. they let me go. my dad will pay for my SS3 tickets and also the Airplane cost. And my mom pays for the hotel and accommodation. and the rest of it they let me to pay it by my self.

I was so happy back then.

then, here we come november 20th the tickets sale only for the priority which is singtel with samsung and ocbc debit or credit card holders. and ocbc singapore not ocbc nisp. and it sold out because of the priority sale only in 30 minutes. After seeing the sistic that it sold out. I did cry. and non stop cry on that day. bad mood. yes! totally.. my dream just fly away.... its so hard to get the permission. and suddenly it dissapeared.

then RITS make 100 tickets sale for public on 23rd. at 10 am which is 9 am west indonesia time. it was SOCA day! and I was like. okay.. what happened here. then I brought my laptop to college. I didn't prepare for my soca that morning, everybody keep writing down something or memorizing something. and I was like waiting on my laptop to 9 am. and suck! my modem was soooooooo slow.. i was log in there at 9.01 but because it so slow it become 9.02. then its all red. it sold out in 2 mins. then cacut said " dita I saw it in black! and after that I click. It dissapeared. its not in 2 mins, it was in second."

Me, Tibung keep trying to refresh it, because sistic usually down. but It didn't work. I wait about 30mins, and still red. the ticket was sold out. I was gonna crying but then I always make my self not to cried in front of a lot of people. because everybody watching us. they support us. but we didn't get it.

All I did was staring at the laptop keep refreshing it, and stare to tibung's. and I saw her eyes also going to cry. we both forceed ourselves not to cried. then... cacut started crying. and me and tibung said "cut please don't cry. because we're going end up with crying too" I just left buy drinks. and soca started. At the waiting room. I don't even open my book. all I do is just staring at nothing..

Thank God the SOCA succeed. but It is so sad.
I told my mom, then she said to let it go, then my dad too. they said its not my time.
and now the 2nd show is open, and the limited it for the public sale. but... my mom and my dad didn't allowed me.. they said I should let it go. I dont know the reason but they said just let it go. my dad forbid me to watch that because when he knows its 5000 people and also there'll be crow and what.. I dont know. I just dont know the reason why they didn't let me. or because at the 1st time I said the ticket was sold out. so they don't expect me to go again.

and what is really heartbreaking. because 2nd show ticket still available. seriously. it so sad.. :( but they won't let me go.
I should wait for super show in indonesia..

so goodbye my super junior oppa.
my daddy just teach me again about "you can't always get what you want, you get what you really need"